a blog with cultural bulimia.

Thursday, October 30, 2003


Back when I had zits there was this very popular brazilian song that warned about people with more than thirty (things):
Com mais de trinta --  Marcos Valle

Am7 G/B
Nao confie em ninguem com mais de trinta anos
C A/C# G/D
Nao confie em ninguem com mais de trinta cruzei___ros
B7/D# Em Em/D
O professor tem mais de trinta conse__lhos
Mas ele tem mais de trinta, oh mais de trinta
C D7/4(9) G(add9)
Oh mais de trin_____ta

Am7 G/B
Nao confie em ninguem com mais de trinta ternos
C A/C# G/D
Nao acredite em ninguem com mais de trin___ta vestidos
B7/D# Em Em/D
O diretor quer mais de trinta minu__tos
Pra dirigir sua vida, a sua vida
C D7/4(9) G(add9)
A sua vi_______da
DO NOT trust anyone over 30
DO NOT trust anyone with more than 30 suits...

It was the youth of Brazil (oh, my!) asserting itself in a country governed by older military generals.

FORWARD to my next life, a few decades older. That rule gets reversed:

DO NOT get involved with anyone under 30.

Just a general guideline, of course. Special cases will be taken in consideration.

Unintentionally Hilarious Photo of the Moment

Wednesday, October 29, 2003


noun: the ideal in terms of which something can be judged (Example: "They live by the standards of their community")
adjective: established or widely recognized as a model of authority or excellence (Example: "A standard reference work")

In two different instances recently, guys that had shown interest in me - and where I had seem the spark of promise that gets me excited, ended up in bed with people close to me. Were they trying to impress me or they just did not care what I would think/feel?

It's beyond that simple - and I am simplifying a lot here.

One of the x's of this axiom is the feeling of entitlement that is integral part of the American culture - it's written in the Constitution. It's a great thing. If used right.

Gay man feels that they can AND should act on EVERY SINGLE SEXUAL IMPULSE they have. And most of them do. It's a self-centered, egotistic and hedonistic approach to life. And one of the reasons why most of us are single: we are not willing to 'give up'. Nothing.


Standards are good to have. VERY GOOD. And I'm not being hypocritical nor am I a prude (I don't hide things I've done but I am very discreet -- another quality that has been missing around the city). But I also have been in enough relationships, short and long, to learn about its pillars.


Is there an island where they have shipped all the man that think like me? They are certainly not in this island. Unless I have crossed over to a parallel universe...


and I thought I'd already met brazil's wild side ?!

I love your profile. You're right...the moments are even more special when we have someone to share them with...until then, Enjoy the moments!

Via Gawker: "On August 18th, a deed was recorded showing that Vincent Gallo's company -- Brown Bunny LLC, in West Hollywood --bought apartment #3N at 173 Perry Street. The purchase price was $1.675 million, and he bought the apartment from a Karen Fleiss of Manhattan. She bought the apartment in 2002 from the condo's sponsor (and actually paid a bit more than $2 million for it). There is no mortgage on file, so Gallo may have paid cash. The apartment is full-floor: 1853 square feet, plus a 78 square foot 'terrace."


"New York is a city of carless walkers
which makes sidewalks an effective medium if you want to spread a message."

Gay With Children

AND A place for the hairy and proud

Tuesday, October 28, 2003

St. Jude of Thaddaeus, Patron of Desperate Cases

St. Jude, glorious apostle, faithful servant and friend of Jesus, the name of the person (who betrayed our Lord) has caused you to be forgotten by many, but the true Church invokes you universally as the Patron of things despaired of. Pray for me, who is so miserable; pray for me, that I may finally receive the consolations and the succour of Heaven in all my necessities, tribulations, and sufferings, particularly (ADD YOUR PERSONAL REQUEST HERE), and that I may bless God with the Elect Throughout Eternity.

I was raised catholic by very liberal (religiously) parents - my father would go to church often but never made me go with him. I went to catholic high school and a catholic university. Yet I cannot make peace with the church as an institution.
My father's favorite saint - and of most of Brazil - is St. Jude and he even built a church for him in the little town where he was born and just moved back to.
Desperate causes.
In desperate moments, I find myself lighting a candle to St. Jude...
Memorial: 28 October (Roman Church); 19 June (Eastern Church)

Profile: Son of Cleophas, who died a martyr, and Mary who stood at the foot of the Cross, and who annointed Christ's body after death. Brother of Saint James the Lesser; nephew of Mary and Joseph; blood relative of Jesus Christ, and reported to look a lot like him. May have been a fisherman.

Writer of canonical letter. Preached in Syria, Mesopotamia, and Persia with Saint Simon. Healer. Exorcist. Could exorcise pagan idols, which caused the demons to flee and the statues to crumble.

His patronage of lost or impossible causes traditionally derives from confusion by many early Christians between Jude and Judas; not understanding the difference between the names, they never prayed for Jude's help, and devotion to him became something of a lost cause.

Died: beaten to death with a club, then beheaded post-mortem in 1st century Persia; relics at Saint Peter's, Rome, at Rheims, and at Toulouse, France

Patronage: desperate situations, forgotten causes, hospital workers, hospitals, impossible causes, lost causes, diocese of Saint Petersburg, Florida

more information


Monday, October 27, 2003


"Living in a glass house may seem like a radical notion, but to stand inside one, looking out, is a wonderful way to glimpse the limits of the way we assume we must live."

"The real puzzle of the Farnsworth House is that a structure so severe, so machinelike in its intensity, could be so frankly and wholly committed to nature. Everyone supposes, naturally, that living in a glass house means worrying about the outside looking in, and perhaps that is so over a run of weeks and months. But to walk through the house — to imagine living in it — is to indulge in looking out, in seeing all the ways the woods and the river and the lawn to the north frame the living spaces. It is hard to explain how floor-to-ceiling glass walls could increase the intimacy of nature itself, but that is exactly what they do. The house hovers on its steel piers five feet above the ground, just high enough to isolate you from the roll of the earth. The wooded canopy seems to reach down and brush the glass walls like a constantly shifting Japanese print.
NYTimes Op-Ed: "An Afternoon Amid the Glass Walls of Mies van der Rohe's Farnsworth House"
thanks mr. dw for having discussed the house the day before the article came out and for sending the link. you will be missed when you move away.
IF you move away.

Structural Analysis
How to visit

Sunday, October 26, 2003



All-American Guy..25, 5'11, 175..
Masculine, Outgoing, Social...
Soccer, Swimming, Hiking, Baseball, Camping...
Into IN-SHAPE Masculine Men!!!

"'The Simple Life' (premiering -- at least for the time being -- at 8:30 p.m. on Dec. 2), Paris Hilton, hotel heiress, and Nicole Richie, 'Dancing on the Ceiling' heiress, pack their bags and head to rural Arkansas, where they'll stay for five weeks with the Ledings, a farming family in the small town of Altus. After a big party and send-off by Paris' mommy and daddy (again, what were they thinking? Are they not familiar with Fox, the network of chaotic evil?), Nicole and Paris jet off to a secret location ('Where the fuck are we?' Nicole asks repeatedly) and, upon landing, are forced to haul their massive bags into the back of an old pickup truck and drive themselves to the family's farm. "
via salon

Saturday, October 25, 2003


happy birthday mr. dw
it has been an interesting ride
The Black and White

'The key to eating a black and white cookie, Elaine, is you want to get some black and some white in each bite. Nothing mixes better than vanilla and chocolate. And yet, still, somehow racial harmony eludes us. If people would only look to the cookie. All our problems would be solved.' -- Seinfeld - The Dinner Party

Friday, October 24, 2003


the wall street journal has never been a guide for fashion and, surprisingly, in today's edition it proclaims on how hipsters and other style gurus have already declared Von Dutch trucker hats passe, but customers continue to buy them in droves. (I guess that's the business twist they are using to justify the article)

I hate Trucker Hats - it's a stupid fad.
I agree with gawker when they said, back in March, that 'BLUE COLLAR CHIC' was actually an insult to the working class.
"But what's even more frightening is that this is all part of a larger, more horrifying trend: Blue Collar Chic."
"Maybe it's trust-fund-baby guilt manifesting itself in poor but superficially egalitarian fashion choices; I don't know. But let's not pretend that's a legitimate excuse. In other parts of the country, people dress like that because they need to. And if they didn't need to, they wouldn't—most of them have better taste."
Trucker hats & blue collar chic @gawkerr

But the WSJ actually nails the extremely fast pace of fashions -- actually, fads -- today:
'There's always a lag between what the fashionistas wear on city streets and what's on display at the mall. But the life cycle of fads has accelerated to a pace where trends seems overplayed right out of the gate, even though the rest of the world is just catching on. As a result, it's increasingly the case that fashions can be hot and passe at the same time.'

And gawker adds,sarcastically, it's two cents: "Well, of course. Please note: this weekend trucker hats are hot between 14th Street and 32nd Street on the West Side, are laughable between Houston and Delancey on the LES, and will pass unremarked upon on Avenue B. Make sure you bring a change of headgear if you're bar-hopping inter-neighborhood this weekend!"
Truck On: Hot and Not @ gawker



'The New York dog is different from the national dog,' he said. 'The national dog has sort of a Midwestern look, well mannered with a good groom. Maybe a golden Lab. The New York dog is streetwise, spunky, intelligent. It's the kind of dog that would say: `Arghruff! Make my day.'

New York's Top Dog? It Depends on the ZIP Code: A New York Times analysis of dog licensing data.
Graphic: The Dogs of New York




Jesus actor struck by lightning
Actor Jim Caviezel has been struck by lightning while playing Jesus in Mel Gibson's controversial film The Passion Of Christ.

Thursday, October 23, 2003


Just forced myself to finish reading The Da Vinci Code. To me, it is a poorly written version of The Name of the Rose. Where the Umberto Eco book was challenging and dense, Dan Brown's is light and patronizing. Written with 'best-seller' and 'movie rights' blocking his view, the book is adept of the principle of teaching by repetition. And repeat it does. Over and over. The ideas it touches are interesting and particularly interesting to me: the bible we have access to today has been re-written to serve the Vatican's purposes. Masonry and secret societies. Maria Magdalena as Jesus wife and as one of the 13 apostles, with a lineage that still exists today. Symbolism throughout the ages... Secrets...
But it's like history lesson for teenagers made interesting by being disguised behind a treasure hunt adventure.


Liza, stop it, stop it!
Talk About a Powerful Drink
"A sworn document filed in State Supreme Court in Manhattan posits that Liza Minnelli -- a major star of 'Arthur 2: On the Rocks' -- actually gained physical strength from the ingestion of vodka.
It worked for Popeye with spinach and Bruce Banner with rage, but this is unheard of. Right?"


The weather in nyc has gone mad -- from nice to chilling in less than 24 hrs. If you are staying in bed and, like me, alone, here is a place to experience a world of blogs that you probably have not visited yet: THE CARNIVAL OF THE VANITIES.

Mr. dw and I crossed another movie off my list last night: the Cohen Brother's Intolerable Cruelty. Very entertaining, perfect for a non-date date... But I have also to give credit to the company... Where i would normally fell anxiety for having suggested the movie, i felt just so at easy. Easy company. Easy man. Enjoyable night.

and just so not to let it go by unmentioned:
"David Says 'Boozy Liza Beat Me!'"
weird news 'analysis' via gothamist
"David Gest, the estranged husband of Liza Minnelli, claims in a lawsuit filed today that the singer regularly beat him during the couple's 16-month marriage."
via smoking gun

Tuesday, October 21, 2003


n : (in logic) a self-contradiction; 'I always lie'

Imagenes de la vida privada de Bert & Ernie
william cruz via airport

in the manner of redact

I have an etch-a-sketch for a brain. People my age well know the reference from childhood. I can place a memory very firmly in my brain, then turn to look out the window and it's gone. God help me if I have to drive over rough terrain... I'm liable to forget who I am.

"If the radiance of a thousand suns were to burst forth at once in the sky, that would be like the splendor of the Mighty One... I am become Death, the destroyer of worlds."

A Face Lift for The Times, Typographically, That Is
"Starting today, the front page and main news sections of The New York Times are receiving a gentle typographical face-lift.
In place of a miscellany of headline typefaces that have accumulated in its columns over the last century, the newspaper is settling on a single family, Cheltenham, in roman and italic versions and various light and bold weights. A narrow variation will be used for The Times's signature one-column headline, which often appears at the top right of Page A1 on the main article of the day."

The New York Times Press Release

Monday, October 20, 2003


New York Post: "A Catholic pastor ordered two men out of the choir because they went public with their gay wedding, the men say.

"I know what I am inside. I do not believe that my orientation is on a par with others' lapses into lust when they also have an option for sexual and emotional life that is blessed and celebrated by the church. I do not believe I am intrinsically sick or disordered, as the hierarchy teaches, although I am a sinner in many, many ways. I do not believe that the gift of human sexuality is always and everywhere evil outside of procreation. (Many heterosexual Catholics, of course, agree with me, but they can hide and pass in ways that gay Catholics cannot.) I believe that denying gay people any outlet for their deepest emotional needs is wrong. I think it slowly destroys people, hollows them out, alienates them finally from their very selves."

Ah, the Catholic Church... I was raised Catholic, in the biggest Catholic country in the world (where it is the official religion - no separation between church and state) by a very religious father who, luckly, believed in not imposing religion on his son.

But it was impossible to totally escape the Church's doctrination as it permeates the culture of the country - better yet, it is the cultural foundation upon which our culture developed.

When one walked through Brazil Body & Soul at the Guggenheim, the most comprehensive show about the history of art in Brazil ever put together - ever - one could not help but notice that the bulk of the pieces shown were religious icons. There was a whole section dedicated to Aleijadinho (The Little Cripple) whose entire life was dedicated to art used to decorate churchs.

It is hard to part with all that it means to me to be Catholic, yet, racionally I cannot justify it. I do understand that history has been rewritten many times - every time power shifted hands - and unfortunately it will be impossible to recover its truth after all these centuries.

It gets lonelier...

MORE on Gay couple ejected from Catholic choir

PHOTOLOG: Satan's Laundromat
Brooklyn-based photolog with an emphasis on strange signage, urban decay, and general weirdness. The kind I would love to have.


Quote of the week: "We are all born naked. Everything else is drag, right? I often feel that I am a gay man trapped in this body." -- Pamela Anderson at

"People Who Have Blogs But Shouldn't" at low culture

"More on Easterbrook " at

"Salvation is cheap" at guardian online

"Drama Dept.: Queer Guy Meets The Press" at ny magazine

"Same-sex family values" at

Sunday, October 19, 2003


Thanks Nathon for forwarding the article
"We are, in fact, so far along in loading the world's last wide-ranging predators into the figurative and wildly aimless ark of human progress that we can almost view the events of recent weeks as part of some collective creaturely revolt, a la Alfred Hitchcock's ''The Birds.'' It's as if the animals themselves are subliminally sensing and trying to flee -- in the way they do the earliest tremblings of earthquakes -- both their complete displacement from their realm and their distorted replacement within ours. They seem naturally discomfited by the vast disconnect in our thinking about them, which can readily dismiss such things as the centuries of begrudging but mutually propitious interludes that were required to render a wolf a dog; or that can transform 400-pound tigers into apartment dwellers or apparently cute cuddle toys twirling atop glass balls. "
via NYTimes Magazine

Saturday, October 18, 2003


Men's room etiquette

via sexpartyguru



Tommy Pygmalion Has a New Project
THE MAN BEHIND THEM: Top,Tommy Mottola, the pop music impresario, in 1996 with Mariah Carey, then his wife, whose career he nurtured into stardom. Bottom with Thalia Sodi, his current wife. "

Friday, October 17, 2003


"A quick word on the Easterbrook affair: For those of you who are unaware, New Republic scribe Gregg Easterbrook recently engendered some controversy when he wrote on his blog, in reference to Quentin Tarantinowitz's new film Kill Bill, " The Jews need to remember that they're guests in this country; if they can't keep their money-grubbing urges in check long enough to start making decent movies, maybe it's time to send them back to Germany." To his credit, Easterbrook only waited four days to apologize (you can read it here). In his defense Easterbrook noted that
a) the immediacy of blogging somehow lends itself to poorly chosen anti-Semitic phraseology (i.e., without a sharp Jew editor to blue-pencil it out, you might actually write what you think) and

b) the entry in question was actually written by guest blogger Mahathir Mohammad.

While we can't speak to the second part, we're not unsympathetic to the first: We've certainly made a few ill-advised posts of our own recently (we're thinking in particular of "Enough Already with Black People", "We'll Get to AIDS When We're Done With Cancer, Okay, Bruce?" and, perhaps most controversially, "Fuck You, Pope"). We think the lesson here is pretty clear: Before you post something to your site, you need to read it very carefully and make sure that your message can't be misconstrued. Also, you know, don't fuck with the Jews: They totally control the media and they'll come down hard on your ass."

via The Minor Fall, The Major Lift

Wednesday, October 15, 2003

'A mate is no ordinary friend: he or she is a bro, a dude, a homeboy, a pard, a pally--Someone who's got your back, who's connected to you by a kind of tribal bond...'
Mates: An Introduction from Zoetrope Magazine

'Mate is a comfortable and companionable word. Its world exudes a kind of biological or metaphysical rightness: a place where human beings, like those smiling giraffes shown boarding the ark in tandem in children's books, contentedly pair off forever. It is a cosmic laundry in which no sock ever goes missing. '

via Cucalambe

Monday, October 13, 2003

same song, different heart


via same feeling, different time

Friday, October 10, 2003


"The Nobel Commitee seems to me to have done a great thing in awarding it to a pro-democratic Iranian woman. It's a sign that the world understands the plight of people living under Islamist dictatorships and wants to support those who have made a difference in moving the Muslim world toward greater pluralism and openness. "
via Andrew Sullivan
"The Norwegian Nobel Committee has decided to award the Nobel Peace Prize for 2003 to Shirin Ebadi for her efforts for democracy and human rights. She has focused especially on the struggle for the rights of women and children.
As a lawyer, judge, lecturer, writer and activist, she has spoken out clearly and strongly in her country, Iran, and far beyond its borders. She has stood up as a sound professional, a courageous person, and has never heeded the threats to her own safety."
The Norwegian Nobel Institute


A SHORT LIST OF MOVIES TO SEE: all opening this weekend
Quentin Tarantino's Kill Bill Vol. 1
The Cohen Brother's Intolerable Cruelty
Gus Van Sant's Elephant - Palme d'or 2003 au Festival de Cannes
are to be added to last week's list:
Clint Eastwood's Mystic River
The Brazilian Documentary Onibus 174
John Black's School of Rock
The Station Agent
Good thing we crossed Lost in Translation off the list this week. Very good movie, highly recommended.


Kim's Journal: "This is Brad Vering. I figured facial hair, pretty muscular, and into wrestling. Can't go wrong with these pictures. He's the one in the blue suit."
Brad Vering Athlete Bio:
* Brad was a three-time NCAA All-American
* He graduated from Nebraska with a degree in Diversified Agriculture.
* His hobbies include hunting, fishing, and golf.
* Brad served as a conditioning specialist and club coach at the University of Northern Iowa.


CHECKLIST: #3. Listen
to music, happy or sad, whatever transports you, and sing if you want to.
I bought 2 new albums this week (I know, nouvelle idea - who buys albums nowadays? But i have this thing about actually owning the cd or book - hardcover - that fullfill me):
Erykah Badu's "Worldwide Underground" and Outkast's "Speakerboxxx/ The Love Below" (actually two solo albums, side by side).

I have these 3 cds playing constantly - on 'shufle' - and I can't get enough of them.
They are VERY distinct from each other yet they have a certain 'je ne sais pas' feeling about them.
Beyond the obvious connections -- Outkast's Big Boi and Andre 3000 released their first album back in 94 and reached the heights in 2000 with "Stankonia". Erykah Badu released "Baduizm," in 1997 and was immediatelly labeled the first lady of neo-soul. Andre 3000 and Erykah Badu where a couple for a while: they've written music together and share a son. (On "The Love Below," Andre 3000 sings: "We young in love / in short, we had fun / No regrets, no abortion, had a son / By the name of Seven, and he's 5, by the time I do this mix/ He'll probably be 6.") -- the music seems to 'make sense': the three of them reached the point they are today by sharing a commom cultural history, the same cultural references, and I want to call them Hip Hop.

Music critics would probably kill me for saying this but i think i'm safe as far as my 'readership' including one of them... But I want to call the cultural soup that would enable these 3 distinct works to appear simmultaneously, Hip Hop -- and that term is sooo open to interpretation. Still, 30 years after its start.

YOU DO NOT LIKE HIP HOP? How can you say that, you are such an intelligent person...

I think the main problem here is the very commom confusion there is in people's mind between the terms Hip Hop and Rap. Even further, Gangsta Rap. These are DISTINCT AND NON-INTERCHANGEABLE concepts.


In 2000, a show at the Brooklyn Museum of Art named "Hip-Hop Nation: Roots, Rhymes, and Rage" was presented in five sections examining the development of hip-hop. I'll borrow that format to 'arrange' all the information I gathered. This is a patchwork of things I read, things I borrowed and thoughts I have. Please forgive me If I fail to use quotation marks or give credit to some of the most erudite statements but listed bellow are all the sources I used to prepare for writing it - i am not publishing a scientific paper...
"Hip hop music reflects where you're from in it's purest form... One should be able to listen to a record and be able to have a good idea about what was going on at the time the record was made. TThe whole thing about hip hop being purely art is true to the degree that people who either hit a higher conscious level or were removed from the day to day stresses of living in the hood could afford to experiment and branch out."

1. The Block Party
Hip Hop is a lifestyle with its own language, style of dress, music and mind set that is continuously evolving. It is today a multi-cultural fusion of many different contributions made by several ethnic groups but it's ancestry is Black: it originated in the South Bronx section of New York City around the mid 1970s and thrived within the subculture of Black and Puerto Rican communities in New York.
Initially it consisted of four main elements: graffiti art, break dancing, dj (cuttin' and scratching) and emceeing (rapping). Nowadays because break dancing and graffiti aren't as prominent the words 'rap' and 'hip hop' have been used interchangeably, erroneously. Hip Hop is the culture from which rap emerged: Rap and Hip-Hop are not interchangeable.
If we make an analogy between Hip hop and skateboarding (two readily recognized features of popular culture) things might get clearer: Hip hop and skateboarding both came from a need for the young people to express their stifled angst and at the same time their creativity. Hip Hop has branched off into sub-genres such as gangster rap and conscious rap, while sports such as snowboarding and wakeboarding are derived from skateboarding.

2. The Roots
The beginnings of hip-hop are in the 1970s and early 1980s: hip-hop pioneers Kool Herc, Grandmaster Flash, Afrika Bambaataa, and Kurtis Blow. It's a 1970s New York phenomenon, born out of an atrophying economy and a unique Afro-Latino, pan-Caribbean urban creolization taking place in certain neighborhoods like the South Bronx and East Harlem. Those neighborhoods were sites of 'intense interaction and cooperation' between African American, Puerto Rican and West Indian youth where shared social and economic status paved the way for the jointly created, syncretic expressions we now call hip hop.

3. The Golden Era
The mid-eighties through 1990, hip-hop's most creative and influential period: The era produced the remarkable rhyme skills of Rakim and Slick Rick, the feminist flavor of Salt N' Pepa, MC Lyte, Monie Love, and Queen Latifah, the agitprop poetry of Public Enemy, and the gangsta soundtrack of N.W.A.

4. Controversy
Outrage and the Rise of Gangsta Rap: It's the period when the subculture of gangsta rap came to dominate radio airwaves and garnered the bulk of the media's attention. Such events as 2 Live Crew's infamous obscenity trial and the intense criticism of Ice-T's Cop Killer record (which was actually a rock song performed by his band, Body Count) marked hip-hop's arrival in mainstream America. By the mid-1990s, hip-hop would lose two of its major icons to tragedy: first Tupac Shakur, then The Notorious B.I.G. were the victims of still-unsolved drive-by shootings.
On Gangsta Rap: "The sexist, misogynist, patriarchal ways of thinking and behaving that are glorified in gangsta rap are a reflection of the prevailing values in our society, values created and sustained by white supremacist capitalist patriarchy. As the crudest and most brutal expression of sexism, misogynistic attitudes tend to be portrayed by the dominant culture as an expression of male deviance. In reality they are part of a sexist continuum, necessary for the maintenance of patriarchal social order. While patriarchy and sexism continue to be the political and cultural norm in our society, feminist movement has created a climate where crude expressions of male domination are called into question, especially if they are made by men in power. It is useful to think of misogyny as a field that must be labored in and maintained both to sustain patriarchy but also to serve as an ideological anti-feminist backlash. And what better group to labor on this 'plantation' than young black men."

5. Pop Goes the Culture
Towards the end of the 90s, the industry shifted gears from gangsta rap to a more mainstream-friendly, materialistic and sexual hip hop, one that continues to dominate the charts today -- hip-hop has become the dominant American young culture. Since MC Hammer and Vanilla Ice in the early 1990s, hip-hop has reigned over the pop charts, along the way influencing R&B performers (TLC, R. Kelly, Mary J. Blige), rock acts (Rage Against the Machine, Limp Bizkit, Kid Rock), and pop acts (Backstreet Boyz, Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera). Hip-hop's mainstream invasion has also transformed fashion, language, and the way that Madison Avenue markets to youth in America and the young world: Puff Daddy, Missy Elliott, Eminem, Will Smith, The Beastie Boys, Ultra-sexed rappers Lil' Kim and Foxy Brown, Jay-Z, the Fugees, Lauryn Hill, Wyclef Jean and others are the 'idols' of our comtemporary youth.
Because it is an outlet for angst and frustration, Hip Hop has been one of the main contributing factors that helped curtail gang violence and urban violence in general. And not only in the U.S. but all over the world: French hip hop, for example, has emerged as the voice of France's impoverished African and Arab minorities, expressing the rage and alienation of life in 'les cit'.
related reading
The History Of Hip Hop
Hip Hop Timeline Gateway to the Black World
Hip Hop Culture in France
Origin of the word 'Ghetto'
HipHopBR - Brazilian Hip Hop magazine
r e a l h i p h o p - Brazilian web site
History of Hip Hop in Brazil (in Portuguese)

But, on the three cd's that are the 'reason to be' of this posting, do not take my word for it. Listen to some samples and read some reviews via links bellow hear samples of the songs hear samples of the songs
album reviews
NYTimes: When Weird Works: Outkast and Erykah Badu.
Guardian Unlimited: Both albums are sublime. Taken together they're hip-hop's Sign o' the Times or The White Album: a career-defining masterpiece of breathtaking ambition.
NYMetro: Speakerboxx is all rollicking party music, full of bursting horns, huge choruses, and the sparse beats of the 808 drum machine. OutKast topped the U.S. album charts on Wednesday with its latest release, 'Speakerboxxx/The Love Below'.
E! Online: They boldly mix influences like Funkadelic, Curtis Mayfield and Sly & the Family Stone. ... 'She Lives in My Lap' is the best Prince song Prince forgot to make. Double the pleasure, double the fun? Definitely, definitely.


"Travel back in time to the Landmark Loews Jersey Theatre, one of the last remaining movie palaces. Opened in 1929, nearly demolished in 1986, and lovingly restored by volunteers, this grande dame of cinemas is all red velvet, gilt edges, and bygone-era opulence. Timeless touches include fresh popcorn, vintage previews, and a six-dollar ticket price."
This Weekend: Judy & Liza Together
Friday, October 10 8PM
The Clock (1945)
Saturday, October 11 5PM
Cabaret (1972)
Saturday, October 11 8:30PM
A Star Is Born (1954)
via DailyCandy

Thursday, October 09, 2003


Direction is good.
I give up. In spite of my best efforts, i cannot blog about EVERYTHING.
It was not easy - on me or on you. So, from now on, I'll try to stick to the original purpose when I started this weblog, stated right under the title:
a scrapbook of the life of a modern brazilian gay man in new york city
Expect to find postings on above related subjects and I promise to will try not to stray. Too far.



If it's not a crime to be gay, why can't we get married?
via The Wall Street Journal
It didn't take long for many social conservatives to ponder the long-term implications of the Supreme Court's recent decision to strike down all antisodomy laws in the U.S. Moves are afoot to advance a constitutional amendment that would bar any state's legalization of same-sex marriage; next week is "Marriage Protection Week," in which the alleged danger of Lawrence v. Texas will be highlighted across the country. This push toward blanket prohibition, however, sidesteps a basic point about the post-Lawrence world. Whatever you feel about the reasoning of the decision, its result is clear: Gay Americans are no longer criminals. And very few conservatives want to keep them that way. The term "gay citizen" is now simply a fact of life.

and on his own blog:
"A hefty part of the opposition to same-sex marriage is based on purely religious grounds. Some on the social right do not make any real distinctions between Biblical law and civil law. Or rather, they don't on matters pertaining to homosexuality. So they're against everything to do with gay rights, period. Secular opponents of marriage for gays may well be in favor of some sort of civil union that isn't quite marriage, but (with some noble exceptions like Jonah) they avoid saying so in order not to offend their fundamentalist allies. The anti-gay marriage forces are, in fact, more conflicted than the pro-gay marriage forces. The left's former hostility to the idea has largely evaporated within the gay world over the last decade. But the fundamentalist right's opposition to any recognition of gay relationships at all is as strong as ever. That means that no conservative compromise - internally or externally - looks possible. Or am I wrong?"

A USATODAY Poll finds that
"(t)he nation essentially is split in half over whether to accept gay and lesbian marriage:
While 48% of those surveyed say allowing gay unions 'will change our society for the worse,' 50% say they would be an improvement or have no effect."
"That's amazing progress. Less than 20 years ago, the Supreme Court said it was OK to send gay people to jail for having sex. Now half the country is comfortable with gay marriage."
says InstaPundit.Com

Providing no social space for monogamous relationships among same sex couples while at the same time condemning homosexual promiscuity strikes me as not only an unfair Catch-22 but misguided on a number of practical fronts.
Jonah Goldberg on National Review Online


The Catholic Church never ceases to amaze me:
Vatican: condoms don't stop Aids
"The Catholic Church is telling people in countries stricken by Aids not to use condoms because they have tiny holes in them through which the HIV virus can pass - potentially exposing thousands of people to risk."
via Guardian Unlimited


The Sad Before and After of a Hostage Crisis in Rio
"The Brazilian documentary 'Bus 174' is so wrenching and absorbing that you can easily lose sight of the sophistication of its techniques. Using a combination of video taken for Brazilian television and ex post facto talking-head interviews, the filmmakers, Felipe Lacerda and Jose Padilha, have made a deceptively straightforward film that has the force of tragedy and the depth of first-rate investigative journalism."

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy,...

it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

This subject has been circulating the internet lately & finally someone makes sense of it.
and in Portugese (Brazilian):
De aorcdo com uma pesqiusa de uma uinrvesriddae ignlsea, nao ipomtra em qaul odrem as lrteas de uma plravaa etaso, a uncia csioa iprotmatne e que a piremria e utmlia lrteas etejasm no lgaur crteo. O rseto pdoe ser uma ttaol bcguana que vcoe pdoe anida ler sem pobrlmea. Itso e poqrue nos nao lmeos cdaa lrtea isladoa, mas a plravaa cmoo um tdoo.


Best Place to Watch NY: Grand Central

via The Village Voice

best guy with a huge cock: JONAH FALCON
Tucked away in a pair of jeans in Brooklyn is one of the biggest dicks in the country. Bulging out of 33-year-old out-of-work actor-turned-writer JONAH FALCON, the 13-and-a-half-inch penis has turned the heads of NY mags all year. Rolling Stone featured the well-hung Yankee fan in an out-of-place double-page feature depicting the overweight Falcon in his bathroom. While his mother says he's always been big for his age, she denies that Falcon's father was porn star John Holmes, a rumor Falcon has circulated through the press all year.

best bus line on which to watch bootleg movies: LUCKY STAR BUS LINE
It will only cost you 10 bucks to get from NYC to Boston, but you may lose your shit watching the Canal Street bootleg tapes on the Chinatown LUCKY STAR BUS LINE. The picture is terrible and the flicks randomly fast-forward or fade completely out. There was nudity in the last one I saw, though.
69 Chrystie Street, Manhattan 888-881-0887

best bar to see naked girls swimming in an aquarium: CORAL ROOM

best store to buy authentic sari fabric: INTERNATIONAL SARI PALACE

best new west village hangout: WESTVILLE
The moment it opened alongside the M8 bus stop, WESTVILLE was mobbed with a cross-section of the Village, grooving on low-end stuff like burgers and hot dogs in multiple permutations, and more luxurious but still moderately priced crab cakes, steak, and grilled fish.
210 West 10th Street, Manhattan 212-741-7971

best place to watch the japanese staff practice piano lessons: CAKE-O
Both aesthetic and utilitarian, the piano is used by employees who often emerge from behind the counter to practice Chopin after fulfilling your order. It is a voyeuristic combination of extreme employee multitasking and an open stage.
234 Mulberry Street, Manhattan 212-925-4445

best gay pickup joint: BED, BATH, & BOYFRIENDS (ER, BEYOND)

best place to feel sweaty back stubble: THE ROXY
The beats come on and the shirts come off.

best race-baiting dipshits: BLACK ISRAELITES
There's lotsa Bible-thumping douche bags in this country, but the BLACK ISRAELITES are probably the most obnoxious. You can occasionally find a pair of them, black dudes in trad Middle Eastern garb, on the corner of 14th Street and Union Square West, interpreting quotes from the Good Book as anti-race-mixing imperatives. They're such cowards they'll excoriate black women walking by with white men.



from Supertramp's 'Even in the Quietest Moments'

History recalls how great the fall can be
While everybody's sleeping, the boats put out to sea
Borne on the wings of time
It seemed the answers were so easy to find
'To late,' the prophets cry
The island's sinking, let's take to the sky
Called the man a fool, striped him of his pride
Everyone was laughing up until the day he died
And though the wound went deep
Still he's calling us out of our sleep
My friends, we're not alone
He waits in silence to lead us all home
So tell me that you find it hard to grow
Well I know, I know, I know
And you tell me that you've many seeds to sow
Well I know, I know, I know
Can you hear what I'm saying
Can yuu see the parts that I'm playing
'Holy Man, Rocker Man, Come on Queenie,
Joker Man, Spider Man, Blue Eyed Meanie'
So you found your solution
What will be your last contribution?
'Live it up, rip it up, why so lazy?
Give it out, dish it out, let's go crazy,


One of the great discoveries of the time I lived in London where Turner's paintings - I spent most afternoons at the National Gallery staring at them until Impressionism started to make sense.

via Guardian Unlimited: Exhibition offers clues to Turner's secret women


low culture: "How can you not love this guy?

Mr. Yates, 37, said yesterday that he thought Ming was crying one day last week because he was lonely. So he ran to Ming, and engaged him in one of his favorite games, a playful, mock-fighting routine that he called 'Buddy-Buddy.' That's when Shadow the kitten, another of Mr. Yates's feline charges, showed up " - Siegfried: Tiger wanted to help Roy:
"Despite reports to the contrary, Siegfried Fischbacher said Wednesday that the white tiger named Montecore did not maul his partner, magician Roy Horn, during a Las Vegas, Nevada, show last week."
NYTimes: "Pity the Poor Gator, Lost in All the Roar"

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

"I don't know that I want a governor where I know what his penis looks like."


LATimes: "So Familiar Yet So Unknown"
Californians have never known more about a new governor. We've seen him naked on screen. We know about the Nazi father, the celebrity journalist wife, the bodybuilding titles and the crude behavior toward women. We have seen him in theaters, fallen asleep to his voice on television and imitated his accent.
Californians have never known less about a new governor. We've never seen him hold office. We don't know what programs he'll cut, how he'll balance the budget, how he'll negotiate with recalcitrant legislators or how he'll manage the state's bureaucracy.

OK, so Ahnold was elected - as everybody knew he would - and what can we do? Here is a guy that has NEVER served in public office. Yet, he is elected to be 'GOVERNOR' of the second most important state of the Union. What does it say about the people that elected him? NOTHING we did not know already... In the meantime, all i can do is go on enjoying the moon, coz it's cloze to me.


"Californians elected a new governor Tuesday. Sometime over the next year or so, maybe -- just maybe -- they'll find out who he is..."
"Schwarzenegger wins a new role in a landslide. But who will he play: Jesse Ventura? Pete Wilson? Playboy predator? Or tough independent who stands up to his GOP friends?"
via Salon

"Well, even though it was great for punchlines and idle dinner time conversation, the reality that Arnold Schwarzenegger is in fact the next Governor of California makes us think it's the wrong message to be sending out there, to other countries, to the aliens spying on us: If you have Nazi associations (father, random comment, whatever), a fondness for groping women not your wife, multiple $100 million grossing movies, no real political skills, and some serious white chompers, you can too can govern one of the most important states in the U.S."
via Gothamist
via Mercurial
It amazes me the timing of certain postings i run into. I don't feel great. My friend Mr. DF tells me i should go back to the gym, which i go today for the first time in ages. Now i read that Mercurial is not feeling up either and he directs me to this checklist:
From Dave Pollard's How to Save the World
"1. Eat Well: A good balance of foods, nutritional stuff, avoid excess sugar, alcohol and caffeine, eat regularly and moderately, ensure you get your vitamins and minerals.
2. Light Up Your Life: Turn up the lights, walk in the sun, enjoy candles and lanterns and other exotic lights.
3. Listen: To music, happy or sad, whatever transports you, and sing if you want to.
4. Talk: To someone you trust, or care about, or love; yelling and crying are OK too if you feel like it.
5. Exercise: Get your heart and adrenaline pumping; sex counts too.
6. Learn Something New: What TH White said.
7. Travel: Go somewhere you've never been, or someway you've rarely travelled. Walking, trains, go-karts, bicycles, whatever you like.
8. Spend Time with Animals: Unconditional love, undemanding company.
9. Write: No rules, no editing, just writing.
10. Be Good to Yourself: Don't beat yourself up. There's nothing to be guilty for. It's not your fault. Yeah, I know you've heard this, and to some extent it's crap, but there's no point punishing yourself for things beyond your control. Give yourself a break. Do what you want to do. Don't do what you don't want to do. Give yourself time. Get angry if you feel like it. If you're up to it, treat yourself to something special. You're good, important, lovable, even if you (and others) don't believe it right now. Love yourself as soon and as much as you can. You deserve to be happy, peaceful, free of the demons and the darkness."
"The nation essentially is split in half over whether to accept gay and lesbian marriage, a USATODAY Poll finds.

While 48% of those surveyed say allowing gay unions 'will change our society for the worse,' 50% say they would be an improvement or have no effect.

That's amazing progress. Less than 20 years ago, the Supreme Court said it was OK to send gay people to jail for having sex. Now half the country is comfortable with gay marriage."
via InstaPundit.Com
Can you tell where in NY this is?

The Answer
via New York Magazine
It's a Jungle Out There
The city bans sale and possession of almost 200 animals, such as:

Aardvarks, dingos, zebras, bears, weasels, minks, skunks, ferrets, mountain lions, pumas, bobcats, wolverines, nonhuman primates, anacondas, pythons, Komodo dragons, snapping turtles, alligators, iguanas, eagles, hawks, falcons, vultures, roosters, ducks, turkeys, venomous insects and spiders, large rodents, deer, antelopes, sheep, giraffe, hippopotamuses, elephants, whales, walruses and marsupials.

"Even though Ming mauled him, Yates told reporters, 'It's the pain in my heart that's really bothering me. It's like a part of me just left. I really do miss him.' Which leads many to think Ming's new residence in Ohio is unfair to Yates. His sister-in-law says, 'I don't think he did anything wrong, besides keeping it in a project. It needed its own plot of land, like 110th Street, Central Park.'"

via Gothamist and Newsday
in search of a good glass of wine and some good company.

Lost in Translation
The Da Vinci Code Worldwide Underground ~ Erykah Badu

Tuesday, October 07, 2003

"And then you get to know about all their nasty habits...The way the hair on their ass gets rolled into little tanngled balls from walking in leather pants.
About meeting The One
My advice is that when you meet The One and you "just know" Run the other way and spend the rest of your life with the beautiful but fragile fantasy that such a person exists SOMEWHERE. Then, all you have to do is FIND them."
via craigslist | missed connections in new york city
I dare you to disappoint me. Please, please do, in fact.
"I totally absolutely believe the people of California are going to go for the recall and elect that sexually-assaulting Nazi-loving steroid-enhanced asshole -- about whom they know absolutely nothing -- as their new Governor."
via Choire Sicha

Sean Penn is one of the best actors alive, in my opinion - he is not afraid to portray unnactractive, unnapealing characters making them jump out of the movie screen totally attractive and most appealing: you can't take your eyes off of him. "The sheer brilliance of Penn's performance anchors the film. Jimmy may have gone straight, but there's a coiled intensity in him ready to spring. Katie's death is the catalyst. There is something in Jimmy that even his wife, Annabeth (Laura Linney), and their kids can't touch. In a stellar career (Dead Man Walking, Sweet and Lowdown, the upcoming 21 Grams), this may be Penn's most potent two hours onscreen. Do you want to see screen acting at its riskiest and most riveting? Watch Penn."
David Letterman: "Top Ten Items On Rush Limbaugh's To-Do List
10. Apologize for racist remarks by explaining he was high on illegal painkillers"
What's Your Line?
"I have bulimia and dyslexia, and they don't combine well - after every meal, I stick my finger up my ass."
-- Howie Mandel

How Do You Train a Tiger?
"Tigers, like children and dogs, can be taught to modify their behavior through the skilled application of reward and discipline. Less scrupulous trainers sometimes rely on violent measures, but most get the big cats to behave primarily by providing or withholding food."
via Slate Magazine

Tiger, Tiger
"But the ultimate illusion onstage at the MGM Mirage and at Mr. Yates's apartment was always the illusion that these animals could be tamed, an image reinforced by innumerable publicity photos of Siegfried & Roy lounging with their animals. As Montecore and Ming have proved, tigers, like all big cats, remain wild under the skin, even if they have never lived in the wild. Big cats deserve better than to be kept as pets. There are as few as 5,000 tigers remaining in the wild, down from some 100,000 a century ago. Tigers have enough trouble as it is"
via NYTimes

Dear God
, I hope you get this letter. I hope things will get better around here. we don't need a big reduction in the price of beer.
Please make the journey easier for people from Mexico to cross the border into Arizona, California, Texas - wherever they want to go, whenever they want to come. They get killed so fast and in horrible ways, because our government keeps trying to 'save' them by making it tougher and tougher for them to cross."

via margaret cho

Monday, October 06, 2003

"Tyger! Tyger! burning bright,
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye,
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?"
The Tyger by William Blake

"His obsession began innocently enough, with the puppies and broken-winged birds every little boy begs to bring home. Over the years, Antoine Yates's taste in animals grew ever more exotic, neighbors said, and his collection came to include reptiles, a monkey or two and, according to one neighbor, even a hyena."

"Downstairs neighbor Valerie Tompkins said she repeatedly complained to the Housing Authority about tiger urine leaking from upstairs."
NY Daily News

"The alligator, not so much. You know, it's urban folklore, but the tiger was definitely a surprise."

and, across the country, in an unrelated but related story...
"Roy Horn of the glitzy Las Vegas duo Siegfried & Roy has been communicating with doctors and friends, his manager told reporters Sunday, two days after he was mauled onstage by one of the tigers in his show."

Sunday, October 05, 2003

by ex.drunk.a.log
"There are a lot of ways I can change the way I feel without drinking or taking drugs. I can eat myself into a carbohydrate stupor. I can stay up all night. I can sleep too long. I can exercise, or over-exercise. I can have lots of sex. I can read engaging trash or watch TV all night. I can... the list goes on.
The impulse to change the way I feel without investigating why I want to change the way I feel may always be with me. I don't always have to act on my impulses without thinking anymore. Just sometimes."

via daveXtreme

My friend Donn has invited me to break the fast with him tomorrow and i feel honored. There is something beautifull about honoring traditions, respecting each other's believes and being able to live together in peace.

Yom Kippur: October 6, 2003 (Jewish Year 5764)

"Yom Kippur is probably the most important holiday of the Jewish year. Many Jews who do not observe any other Jewish custom will refrain from work, fast and/or attend synagogue services on this day. Yom Kippur occurs on the 10th day of Tishri. The holiday is instituted at Leviticus 23:26 et seq.

The name 'Yom Kippur' means 'Day of Atonement,' and that pretty much explains what the holiday is. It is a day set aside to 'afflict the soul,' to atone for the sins of the past year. In Days of Awe, I mentioned the 'books' in which G-d inscribes all of our names. On Yom Kippur, the judgment entered in these books is sealed. This day is, essentially, your last appeal, your last chance to change the judgment, to demonstrate your repentance and make amends. " "THE LAS VEGAS CONVENTION AND VISITORS Authority launched an ad campaign this year touting Sin City with one of the nation's more unusual come-ons--'What happens here, stays here.'"
Simple yet weird
harmonizing singing horses
via memepool
MemeFirst: "Tigers don't belong in Harlem apartments, of course, and neither do they belong on stages in Las Vegas. They belong in the wild in India, where their continued existence remains in peril. As Rutger Hauer might say, it's not easy, being a tiger."
Police Subdue a Tiger in Harlem Apartment
"To the sounds of enormous jungle roars, a police sniper rappelled down the side of a Harlem apartment building yesterday and fired tranquilizer darts through an open fifth-floor window to subdue -- seat belts, please -- a 350-pound Bengal tiger."
"What the tiger, along with a four-to five-foot reptile called a caiman, was doing inside a cluttered apartment in the Drew Hamilton Houses at Adam Clayton Powell Jr. Boulevard and 141st Street remained a mystery yesterday."

Are More People Cheating?: "'You have almost an acceptance that humankind cannot resist the pressure to cheat, whether it's Sammy Sosa in a slump or Kobe Bryant cheating on his wife,' said Michael Josephson, president of the Josephson Institute of Ethics, a nonprofit organization in Los Angeles that works with schools and businesses to advocate ethical behavior."

Beam Us Up, General Clark: "I still believe in E=mc2, but I can't believe that in all of human history, we'll never, ever be able to go beyond the speed of light."

HUSSEIN-ERA TEXTBOOKS: "Children learned how to repay the revolution's gift starting in first grade, when they were taught to read with lessons like these:
I Love the President

I love the president, the leader, the hero Saddam Hussein. We love him, and he loves us. The president visits us at school and visits us at home. We are all soldiers for the leader, Saddam Hussein. God protect our leader."

The Boy From Oz You Won't Meet on Broadway: "In 'The Boy From Oz,' by contrast, Garland appears highly skeptical of the romance and tries to protect her daughter. Confronting Allen, she says: 'You know what screws people up, honey? Biology. . . . Sometimes your heart is in Venus but your penis is on Mars. . . . Do you know how many times I've been stuck between planets?'"
ohana means family. and family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten.

Saturday, October 04, 2003

The Daily Irrelevant: If the police arrest a mime, do they tell him he has the right to remain silent?

Gothamist: "News about how a white tiger mauled Roy Horn, better known as Roy of Siegfried & Roy, even better known as 'the one with dark hair,' is shocking, but even more sad is that this happened on his birthday - October 3. Apparently, after introducing the debut of a 7 year-old white tiger, the tiger bit Horn's neck then dragged him off stage. Siegfried (Fischbacher) later appeared to say the performance was canceled. One spectator told the Las Vegas Review-Journal: 'There were a couple of gasps, and people thought it was part of the act, and then it was real quiet. It literally drug him by his neck off the stage like a rag doll.'"'s 3rd anniversary.
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