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Tuesday, April 20, 2004

The most I will expose my inner self to you

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Astrology refers to any of several systems of understanding, interpreting and organizing knowledge about reality and human existence, based on the relative positions and movement of various real and construed celestial bodies, chiefly the Sun, Moon, planets, and lunar nodes as seen at the time and place of a birth or other event being studied. For many astrologers the relationship need not be causal.
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We all have read - even if under the pretense of a joke - our daily horoscope on printed media. That stuff means absolutely nothing but their popularity amazes me.

But I do believe there is value in Astrology. Most everybody is aware of the characteristics of their Sun Sign, in a very general way, which leads to steryotypes - my favorite thing in the whole world.

I'm a Gemini. "Geminis have dual personality". Public wisdom. More like public stupitdity. It's so easy to use that label, no need to try to understand why this Gemini today is not acting exactly the same way as he was yesterday. "It's his double personality". That I change to match my outfit. Geminis are extremely adaptable and get bored very easily. That says so much more...

Well, the following is my natal chart. It's NOT WHAT I AM!. It simply shows tendencies that exhert power over my daily choices. There is, above all, my own screwd up self, formed from soooo many different things, of which, the position of the planets the moment I was born, is definitely a part because what it says -IN VERY GENERAL TERMS cannot be disregard as just coincidence.

These are a few, but nevertheless important aspects of my natal chart:
"As you any other astrological report, you must keep in mind that the energies interpreted are your birth potentials. However, you may or may not choose to actualize these energies in the manner described. Your age, sex, socio-economic situation, education, environment, level of development, and many other factors contribute to the ways in which you express your natal energies. Remember, the planets do not compel you to do or be anything. They influence you, but you still have the free will to determine your own life."
starsSun and Moon in Gemini
You were born with both the Sun and the Moon in the sign of Gemini. This indicates, among other things, that your individuality and personality are harmonious. Both positions give you an astute and alert mind. You tire of things easily, but this is not to say that you lack strength. You are drawn to humanistic concerns and would like to see everyone happy and encouraged to express their own views.

You see life as an enthusiastic frolic, and there is little seriousness in you. You make many friends among intellectuals and literary people and have affiliations with numerous societies and associations. You are fortunate enough to be involved in work and activities that satisfy your inner needs.

You read voraciously and you can live on your intelligence.

People may criticize you by saying that you are inconsistent and cannot be relied upon. Fortunately, you do possess characteristic consistency: there is agreement between what you do and what you feel. You are one of those people who think that all problems in life can be solved through intelligent discussion and reasoning.

The key to a better integration of yourself is to deepen the conceptual side of your mind and simultaneously strengthen your will, giving it more force and unity of purpose.

Ascendant in Cancer, Moon in the Twelfth House
Your life will be full of changes and intermittent periods of activity and relaxation. Your vulnerability to external influences makes you subconsciously imitate the manners and ways of those with whom you relate.

In many instances, circumstances will require that you play the role of worldliness and sophistication but under the mask there will exist a very sensitive human being who is easily offended, and also very perceptive of the more subtle influences and impressions, as well as of psychic vibrations.

Cancer gives the tendency to completely retreat when hurt or frightened of a situation. This happens to you often because you tend to interfere in the affairs of others when you are not needed or wanted. Throughout your life, your responses will be emotional rather than rational.

In love matters, you are emotional and gentle.

For the difficult aspects we must warn you against becoming overly preoccupied with trivial details of a psychological nature. Another tendency that you have is to flatter and to criticize carelessly, without regard for the other person's feeling.

You will either live secretively or possess important secrets of another person. Your mind is greatly influenced by the sea of subconsciousness and there is an inborn love for occultism, mystery, and romantic adventures. On the other side, this position may give you a certain lack of stability and firmness in dealing with others.

Venus in the First House
Venus is in the first house. This is a strong position for Venus, for it adds charm to your personality and gives you an amiable and pleasant disposition.

You concentrate a great deal on your appearance and even if you are not especially beautiful or handsome, you have a quality of softness and friendliness, which endears you to many.

You like to keep beauty and grace around you as much as possible. You have a strong affinity with nature and prefer the quiet life of the country to the plastic constructions of city life.
You have strong inclinations toward music, art and drama and you may wish to cultivate a form of artistic expression.

You work very hard to get along with others, and you usually try to win arguments with diplomacy rather than force. You must learn to be self-assertive when necessary and to stand up for your own rights, forcefully if need be. Otherwise, people will not have much respect for you.

Relationships are important to you, and you often go out of your way to initiate them. It is vital that your associations remain harmonious, because quarrels and disputes affect you adversely.

Venus Conjunct Ascendant
Venus conjunct the Ascendant indicates that you have a personable manner and social charm, which win you the approval of everyone you deal with. This is exactly the sanction you seek, for above all, you want to be accepted. You find it easy to make whatever compromises are necessary to get what you desire. However, you may not succeed in convincing everyone that you are only acting the part of the conniver. Regardless of the image you present to observers, underneath the surface is a calculating machine on which you count the advantages and disadvantages of every association or friendship, every social contact and social function.

You are usually well behaved and refined, but when you can not get what you want, you become extremely aggressive and demanding.

Learn to tone down your self-seeking and spend some time developing the more substantial talents that will make you worthy of the gifts you seek.

Saturn in the Seventh House
Saturn was found in seventh house at the time of birth. In your dealings with others, you are going to present a very cautious personality and you will work slowly towards the achievement of security. The environment will be a very restricting factor in your life; the same limitations that hinder your relationships with others will emerge in a narrowness of reception to your ideas and emotions. This indicates that the key to more spiritual and material development lies in your response to the several tests destined for you which consist of patiently enduring difficulties through human relationships.

You should remember that Saturn does not lend a propensity to be demonstrative in an emotional sense. It does, in those individuals with whom you will start a lifelong relationship, give a sense of duty and stability of emotions. Yet you are going to experience some sorrow throughout your life in a relationship. This is mostly going to consist of the several limitations that this state is imposing upon your personal freedom.

The key to a better integration of your existence lies in the ability to view these obstacles and binds with philosophical resignation.

Sun in the Eleventh House
The Sun was found in the eleventh house at the time of birth. In general, this is a favorable position. Throughout your life you will receive assistance from persons occupying superior positions in life. After middle age there are strong possibilities that you will gain in reputation and esteem through relationships with people of prominence. Destiny may grant you sufficient strength of character and even opportunities to carry out your wishes to their utmost.

Spiritually, you seem to have a loyal disposition and you are straightforward and honestly oriented. You're very well aware, however, of a sense of superiority and dignity.

Moon in the Twelfth House
The Moon was in your twelfth house at the time of birth. Secretly, you enjoy a love of romance and adventure that lends a bit of excitement to your daydreaming.

It is possible that the little popularity that you may enjoy in this life will be from some very reserved and secretive circles where your merits are recognized.

It can be expected that you will be successful in positions that call for solitude or remote locations