a blog with cultural bulimia.

Sunday, February 29, 2004

The Wanderer

Saturday, February 28, 2004

Mel Gibson's S&M religion

"Long before he emerged as the spear-carrier for the sort of Catholicism once preached by Gen. Franco and the persecutors of Dreyfus, Mel Gibson attained a brief notoriety for his loud and crude attacks on gays. Now he's become the proud producer of a movie that relies for its effect almost entirely on sadomasochistic male narcissism. The culture of blackshirt and brownshirt pseudomasculinity, as has often been pointed out, depended on some keen shared interests. Among them were massively repressed homoerotic fantasies, a camp interest in military uniforms, an obsession with flogging and a hatred of silky and effeminate Jews. Well, I mean to say, have you seen Mel's movie?"
via slate

Beautiful day

i heart ny
Grand Central, Grand Hyatt, Chrysler Building
by Mr. JJ

See You On The Dance Floor!

 B&STo our dear Body&SOUL family and friends,
To say that Sunday afternoons have felt empty -since our weekly party stopped in July 2002- would be an understatement. After more than a year of silence we would first like to acknowledge how deeply touched we are by your kind words of support and gentle reminders that ever since, it just left a void that could not seem to be filled.

There were some who concluded that after six continuous years, this was it, and in a city rich with its tradition of past legendary nights, it had become another one for the history books, the kind that many later wish they could have been a part of, even once…

While relentlessly searching for a suitable new home, we got a much-needed boost from some wildly successful parties overseas, in Tokyo, Japan as well in Napoli, Italy. But back in New York, our quest uncovered nothing as uniquely warm and raw as what we had been so fortunate to have for so long. The search continues.

But for right now, it is with immense pleasure and a great, joyful sense of relief that we would like to share with you the news of an upcoming special one-time eventparty on Sunday, March 21st, 2004, which will be held at Arc, formerly known as Club Vinyl, located at 6 Hubert Street in Tribeca. All of us will be there to share this long-awaited moment with you, your three DJ’s, Joaquin ‘Joe’ Claussell, Danny Krivit and François K. as well as John Davis, Ariel doing his magic on the lights, Andi on the warm-up and at the door, and the whole rest of the team you've all come to know as your ‘Body&SOUL family’.

Friday, February 27, 2004

Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.

"Mel Gibson and George W. Bush are courting bigotry in the name of sanctity.

The moviemaker wants to promote 'The Passion of the Christ' and the president wants to prevent the passion of the gays.

Opening on two screens: W.'s stigmatizing as political strategy and Mel's stigmata as marketing strategy.

Mr. Gibson, who told Diane Sawyer that he was inspired to make the movie after suffering through addictions, found the ultimate 12-step program: the Stations of the Cross."
Maureen Dowd: Stations of the Crass

mr.jj, photographer. (and i heart ny)

i heart ny
525 Fifth Avenue

Thursday, February 26, 2004

I'm not gay

From Telegraph | News :

King Norodom Sihanouk of Cambodia, an 81-year-old father of 14, yesterday surprised his subjects by denying that he was homosexual. His comments came as he underlined his support for same-sex marriage, having seen television coverage of such weddings in California.

hey ya!

click here: awesome!
via daveXtreme


andrew sullivan
some thoughts from Andrew Sullivan's Daily Dish. You don't have to agree with his political views -- i don't. But i think he is one of the most provocative social commentators writing today, and not only on gay issues.
Plus he is a cub. WOOF!

"Well, I went last night to see the movie everyone is talking about. (...)

PURE PORNOGRAPHY: At the same time, the movie was to me deeply disturbing. In a word, it is pornography. By pornography, I mean the reduction of all human thought and feeling and personhood to mere flesh. The center-piece of the movie is an absolutely disgusting and despicable piece of sadism that has no real basis in any of the Gospels. It shows a man being flayed alive - slowly, methodically and with increasing savagery. (...) Toward the end, unsatisfied with showing a man flayed alive, nailed gruesomely to a cross, one eye shut from being smashed in, blood covering his entire body, Gibson has a large crow perch on the neighboring cross and peck another man's eyes out. Why? Because the porn needed yet another money shot. (...)

PILATE, THE SAINT: Is it anti-Semitic? The question has to be placed in the context of the Gospels and it is hard to reproduce the story without risking such inferences. But in my view, Gibson goes much further than what might be forgivable. (...) I wouldn't say that this movie is motivated by anti-Semitism. It's motivated by psychotic sadism. But Gibson does nothing to mitigate the dangerous anti-Semitic elements of the story and goes some way toward exaggerating and highlighting them. To my mind, that is categorically unforgivable. Anti-Semitism is the original sin of Christianity. Far from expiating it, this movie clearly enjoys taunting those Catholics as well as Jews who are determined to confront that legacy. In that sense alone, it is a deeply immoral work of art."

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

mouse potato

(n.) The wired generation's answer to the couch potato
via DailyCandy NYC: Lexicon VII

¡Popular Fiction!

Mental, Mental, Chicken Oriental.
Twockin', shaggin' and smurkin' tabs.

"Maccers remembered having decided that she had doubted she could ever respect him. It hadn’t been his patent inability to leave the kids and the uncouth and decidedly dumpy wife so much as the time when he had handed her a paperback he had picked up from an airport with an embossed cover and had told her that he had really liked it."
via maccers

Putting Bias in the Constitution

"The Constitution has been amended over the years to bring women, blacks and young people into fuller citizenship. President Bush's amendment would be the first adopted to stigmatize and exclude a group of Americans. Polls show that while a majority of Americans oppose gay marriage, many would prefer to allow the states to resolve the issue rather than adopting a constitutional amendment. They understand what President Bush does not: the Constitution is too important to be folded, spindled or mutilated for political gain."
NYTimes Editorial

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

Book deal de jour

Just reported at Publishers Marketplace:
Well-known 28-year-old UK mystery blogger and high-end prostitute Belle de Jour's” (who is not Toby Young) LONDON CALLING, from the winner of the Guardian's Best-Written Web-Site of the Year Award 2003 to Helen Garnons-Williams at Weidenfeld & Nicholson/Orion, in a good deal, in a pre-empt, for manuscript delivery in August 2004, by Patrick Walsh at Conville and Walsh. Italian rights to Rizzoli and Dutch rights to House of Books, both in pre-empts, with a Spanish auction underway.

Christy Fletcher at Fletcher and Parry is selling US rights this week, and there has already been considerable film interest.
via Confessions of an Idiosyncratic Mind

another one for the memory

grange hall

Grange Hall closing tonight
via WhatISee

my favorite place for brunch, hidden in a magic spot in the village and in my mind.
it follows the troubling closing of many other restaurants in new york city, as reported by gothamist

Monday, February 23, 2004


i do

Fuck Hallmark

we love you, yes you.
I linked to this artist's valentine's - love his style and his 'dry' sensibility.
The dogs on the blog head are his as well (experimenting with pictures here, now that I have a place I can upload pics). Not sure why their sniffing spoke to me in such a way...
pieces of my soul

Muscle Bear Cub

"What is a Muscle Bear Cub?
Husky, hunky, hairy, butch guys with bulging biceps, bulbous butts, and full, furry bellies. Guys that call themselves 'bears' come in all sizes, from giant chubby grizzly bears to slim, slender 'otters'.
As they say, 'If you think you're a bear, you are one!' "

Sunday, February 22, 2004

carnaval 1996

saudades do ademir...

new york city photobloggers

at the Apple Store - SoHo
photo by quarlo

my sister, meu bem

fa, fafa, flavinha.
flavia gabriela assunção vasco (gabriela was MY contribution to her beautiful name)

she IS my family and today it is her birthday.

i love you and i miss you.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

i was moved to tears

anne and flo are near the end of the line
Suddenly, it's not the gay pride parades and mardi gras festivals that illustrate gay lives. Suddenly, it's love and patience and kids and umbrellas and bouquets and tuxedoes and all the other bric-a-brac of living.
via andrew sullivan

sundays in the eagle with paul

My favorite bar night in New York. Thanks to DJ (and friend) Paul Ferrer who built this 'party' from literally nothing. It's Eagle Lite: guys are hot without being scary and the mood is definitely more Cheers than Lure - in a very good way. You can actually talk to people as everybody is semi-coherent even though they do not remember meeting you there the night before...
carna at eagle

Meu Bem, Meu Mal

Caetano Veloso

Você é meu caminho
Meu vinho, meu vício
Desde o início estava você
Meu bálsamo benigno
Meu signo, meu guru
Porto seguro onde eu vou ter
Meu mar e minha mãe
Meu medo e meu champanhe
Visão do espaço sideral
Onde o que eu sou se afoga
Meu fumo e minha ioga
Você é minha droga
Paixão e carnaval
Meu zen, meu bem, meu mal

Friday, February 20, 2004

Carnaval 2004 starts today

Banda de Ipanema
Foto de Claudia Elias


The world won't come to an end!

Gemini Horoscope:
A task, dear Gemini, perhaps job-related or perhaps a task of your own, might prove a bit weightier than you had expected, and you're working too hard. This could have you feeling tired and dejected. You need to judge: Exactly how crucial is it to get this done right now? If it really isn't all that vital get as much done as you can without compromising your well-being, and do the rest tomorrow. The world won't come to an end!

She married a dead man

A Love That Transcends Death Is Blessed by the State
"'I had what you can call a perfect wedding,' Ms. Demichel said the next day, chain-smoking beside her new mother-in-law in a Paris caf?.

Yes, it is possible to marry the dearly departed in France, thanks to a law that turns the vow "till death do us part" on its head.

The law dates to December 1959, when the Malpasset Dam in southern France burst, inundating the town of Fr?jus and claiming hundreds of lives. When de Gaulle visited the town a week later, a young woman named Ir?ne Jodard pleaded with him to allow her to follow through on her marriage plans even though her fianc? had drowned.

"I promise, Mademoiselle, to think of you," de Gaulle was reported to have replied.

Later that month, Parliament drafted a law to permit Ms. Jodard to marry her deceased fianc?, Andr? Capra. Hundreds of would-be widows and widowers have applied for post-mortem matrimony since then.

Anyone wishing to marry a dead person must send a request to the president, who then forwards it to the justice minister, who sends it to the prosecutor in whose jurisdiction the surviving person lives.

If the prosecutor determines that the couple planned to marry before the death and if the parents of the deceased approve, the prosecutor sends a recommendation back up the line. The president, if so moved, eventually signs a decree allowing the marriage."

Thursday, February 19, 2004

when did it happen?

don't walk
that all the pedestrian lights were changed?
I never saw a single one being worked on. Like in a fairy tale, one day we woke up and it had happened.
According to Gothamist, since 2000, the Department of Transportation installed new LED lights at:
- 2,800 intersections in Queens and Staten Island
- 3,700 intersections in Brooklyn
- 1,500 intersections in the Bronx
- 2,700 intersections in Manhattan

Marc Jacobs Does Hillary


do you know mr. v? #2

DailyCandy NYC: The Weekend Guide
h i p
What: New West Village enoteca.
Why: Because you've done Barocco, Bottino, and Bot. The B-boys are at it again with Bivio.
When: 5 p.m.-midnight.
Where: 637 Hudson St., at Horatio St. (212-206-0601)
Mr. DF took me to the opening of Bivio last December as he is good friends with the owners -- Danny Emerman and Alessandro Prosperi, the gay couple behind Bottino -- and Sonia Braga by extension.
When Mr. DF met her he went: "Hey, I have a friend from Brazil, do you know Mr. V?"
It's possible...

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

do you know mr. v?

"Some where along the night they mentioned his name, and there is only one person I know by that name. So I looked at them dumbfounded and thought, here we go again, and we cracked up about it."
Circuit parties are like Friendster but in real life
Friends of Vasco: Mr. C said he enjoyed the White Party especially because my friends are 'good people'. Actually, I hear that often. So I begin to wonder...

I had a blast at the White Party. It felt intimate. It felt great. It felt.

I did not enjoy Alegria. I guess I was tired, worn out.
I only went because I really was looking forward to seeing Joey & Dean again. the plan: 2 am at the entrance of the 'tunnel' that leads to the dance floor. I was there but somehow we missed each other as I heard they were looking for me later.
I left around 4.

Sunday, February 15, 2004

i killed the goose

the goose Once there was a goose that laid gold eggs, and the people in the land of Consumption grew rich from them. The goose was happy because he was well fed and the people were happy because the golden eggs kept coming.
The Goose
That Laid Golden Eggs

there is no logic in one's mind when he decides to kill the goose. it's the actual lack of it
Moral: The goose has great nobility when soaring in flight but can get cantankerous when his detractors clip his wings and force him to stay on the ground. But those detractors eventually are forced to acknowledge that life without him is a pain in the neck. In fact, it is impossible.

Saturday, February 14, 2004

The Instant Decorator

Laurie Simmons
the instant decorator

Simmons’s “Instant Decorator” series, which continues her ongoing exploration of figure and interior, was inspired by Frances Joslin Gold’s 1976 book of the same title. This do-it-yourself home-design planner, featuring line drawings of conventional rooms on transparent acetate paper, allowed home decorators to sample fabric and wallpaper combinations of their own invention. But while the concept suffered one fundamental flaw – the discrepancy between the scale of the actual textiles and that of the rooms – Simmons used the creative potential of this shortcoming to her advantage. Like the sense of dislocation that characterized her early photographs of dollhouse interiors (a project, coincidently, that also began in 1976, and was recently documented in the book In and Around the House), the aesthetic inconsistencies of the new work assure a collection of domestic spaces that are simultaneously seductive and disturbing, evocative and unknown.

Cyprus Greeks

Cyprus Greeks and Turks Agree on Plan to End 40-Year Conflict

Graphic: One Cyprus

Greek and Turkish Cypriot leaders on Friday accepted Secretary General Kofi Annan's plan for ending the decades-long division of Cyprus and pledged to negotiate reunification in time for the island's May 1 entry into the European Union.
via ny times
For no apparent reason, some of my most dear friends are from Cyprus.
We connect. What could it be? The cultures are so different yet the sensibility is remarkbly the same.
I really did not know much about Cyprus - I'm ashamed to admit - until I dated one Greek Cypriot a couple of years ago. That was the beggining...

Amazon Glitch Unmasks War of Reviewers

via ny times
A glitch on Amazon's Canadian site revealed the identities of people who had anonymously posted book reviews on the U.S. site.
The weeklong glitch, which Amazon fixed after outed reviewers complained, provided a rare glimpse at how writers and readers are wielding the online reviews as a tool to promote or pan a book — when they think no one is watching.

John Rechy, author of the best-selling 1963 novel "City of Night" and winner of the PEN-USA West lifetime achievement award, is one of several prominent authors who have apparently pseudonymously written themselves five-star reviews, Amazon's highest rating. Mr. Rechy, who laughed about it when approached, sees it as a means to survival when online stars mean sales.

happy valentine's day!


Friday, February 13, 2004

the quietness in the ordinary

Questions for Robert Rauschenberg
What sort of photographs do you prefer?
I like photographs of anything uninteresting. Maybe just two doors on a wall.
How interesting.
You failed! The point is to be uninteresting. But you can have a second chance.
For half a century, you have been America's premier poet of the ordinary. The imagery in your latest paintings is culled from traffic signs, newspapers and billboards. What is so great about the ordinary anyhow?
It usually is ignored. It is overlooked. Most artists try to break your heart, or they accidentally break their own hearts. But I find the quietness in the ordinary much more satisfying.

Thursday, February 12, 2004

Bitter? Me? Pass the lime and salt, darling.


The crass and obvious fakery of the Valentine holiday is powerful enough to get even me down. It's not simply the fact of being alone, though I am not technically alone - in London, you really never are - I have friends aplenty and work galore. No, it's more the smug mutual pampering couples get to experience. (...)

So in honour of the anniversary of the beheading of a christian saint, and our habit of commemorating the event by exchanging overpriced tat , I link these finely crafted greetings in time for the blessed season of togetherness. Print out - cut round - paste on pink card - et voila! A most heartfelt Valentine.
Crushed yet again
I DO love you
I think about you right.
I think you're cute
Dirty talk with Karl
To find true love
Willing to trade
I would program your heartbeat
Bitter? Me? Pass the lime and salt, darling
via Belle de Jour

What Do You Think?:

Gay Marriage

'What's the big deal? It's legal now. My sister's married to a gay guy and everyone knows it.'
Frances Evans, Producer

'Some fag better not try marrying me. These days, you fuck a guy one time and he pulls out a ring.'
Jerry Turner, Musician

'As an overweight, emotionally needy fag hag, I strongly oppose all gay marriage legislation.'
Diane Morris, Counselor

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

Why The M Word Matters To Me

Only marriage can bring a gay person home
"As a child, I had no idea what homosexuality was. I grew up in a traditional home — Catholic, conservative, middle class. Life was relatively simple: education, work, family. I was raised to aim high in life, even though my parents hadn't gone to college. But one thing was instilled in me. What mattered was not how far you went in life, how much money you earned, how big a name you made for yourself. What really mattered was family and the love you had for one another. The most important day of your life was not graduation from college or your first day at work or a raise or even your first house. The most important day of your life was when you got married. It was on that day that all your friends and all your family got together to celebrate the most important thing in life: your happiness — your ability to make a new home, to form a new but connected family, to find love that put everything else into perspective."

as seen in craiglist:

females and gay men pay attention, cool apt. avail. in april
Reply to:
Date: 2004-02-11, 5:20PM EST

Do you like boys? How about small spaces? Noisy neighbors? Dead animals in the wall? No privacy? Well then this place is for you! It's a 2 bedroom, small and cozy, but quiant and cute. I tell you no lies, it ain't Trump Towers but it comes a close second (when you're really drunk). If you're looking for space, move to fucking Bushwick(East Williamsburg my ass...still the ghetto, will always be).

This is what I want: Non-smoker, educated and smart, gainfully employed or a trust-fund kid, passive and quiet, clean, clean, clean, and financially responsible.

This is what I DO NOT want: Hookers, bitches, johns, queens, addicts of any kind, unemployed every other week, bad body odor, straight mommas' boys, mooks, geeks, illegal aliens, fat girls with low-self-esteem or high-maintenance skinny cunts, girls with ex-boyfriends with the tendency to stalk them and anyone over 35 or under 24.

ME: anal-retintive, assertive, quiet, clean, work every day, anal-retintive, manic every other day, laid back when not being manic or anal retintive, asian.


Spike in TiVo replays when Janet Jackson's breast was exposed during the Super Bowl halftime show — the most re-played moment in TiVo history.

"By the way, trying to lighten up puritanical America on this subject has been even harder than getting people to fuck my sister. Me snarling 'Even you have breasts perhaps' to a Family Research Council lady on TV didn't go over as delightfully as I'd hoped. Then New York magazine sardonically asked people what they'd book for next year's halftime show. I said Janet should unveil Justin's privates and Britney should run out and squeal, 'I told you so.' The remark was censored! "
La Dolce Musto

Q & A With Annie Lennox


Annie Lennox has been nominated for an Academy Award for Into the West, a song in Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King.

Are designers offering to dress you for the Oscars?
Yes! It's a Faustian deal. As a neophyte, I find it all quite fascinating. But you have to understand, it's not really my planet.

What is your planet?
It's a different one than people might project. I'm not particularly attention-seeking. I love to make music and stay grounded ... The other day I came up with the term that I'm a thought factory. I think many of us are.

You'll turn 50 this year. How does the eccentric artist age?
It's like having grit in a shoe that you never quite get rid of. One wouldn't want to have the same dilemmas at 50 as one had at 15. And indeed I don't. I have a very different take on life. And yet I still have the same passion for musicmaking and for expression. I wouldn't say that I've mellowed. I'm less mellow, perhaps.

What kind of music are your two daughters into?
Whatever 11-and 13-year-olds listen to — Beyonce, Pink. I like [those singers], but it's interesting how quickly artists become assimilated into the corporate hard sell.

Is it true that MTV once asked to see your birth certificate to prove you were a woman?
I do remember being told that by my record company. At the time, in the '80s, because my presentation was kind of ambiguous sexually, there was quite a resistance to it. To me now, it looks so innocent.

Your manager, Simon Fuller, created American Idol. Has he ever asked you to take over Paula Abdul's gig?
Of course not.

beautiful horizon



The Smoking Gun has the details of the proposed class action lawsuit filed "on behalf of all Americans" filed by a Tenessee woman for damages she and her fellow Americans suffered for being exposed to Janet Jackson being exposed by Justin Timberlake at the SuperBowl. The Hypocrisy Bowl
"In a way, Justin and Janet did us a favor. They spelled out the subtext of the game and its surrounding culture. A culture that tells young men they can't formulate a thought deeper than 'Show us your tits.' A culture that pushes young women to put out for the market, then ridicules them when they do. A culture swinging between cynical sex-sells greed and moral parentalism. A culture obsessed by, and terrified of, a human organ that gives sustenance to babies. And a culture that apparently can't tell the difference between contextually appropriate nudity and a rape fantasy. By the end of Jackson and Timberlake's song, that culture was naked."

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

it brings on a great orgasm

"Venus 2000 is a high-tech, one-of-a-kind, hands-free masturbation aid with controllable stroking action, that gives you powerfully satisfying orgasms. It is easy to use: simply insert yourself into a lubricated, flexible, natural gum rubber liner. Turn on V2000 and adjust the stroke length and speed. You will find it brings on a great orgasm."


The public editor of The New York Times, started something like a weblog:
Daniel Okrent's blog
Brazil began handing out 10 million condoms in an effort against the spread of AIDS during Carnival.

"Carnival is a time when there's a lot of contact"
Health Minister Humberto Costa said in Brasília as he handed out the first condoms of the campaign.

Carnival 2004 happens from February 21 (Saturday) through 24 (Tuesday).

Yes, this is a serious posting.

As seen on craigslist.
FREE RENT - for 'favors'
Reply to:
Date: 2004-02-10, 12:50PM EST

Yes this is a serious posting. I thought I'd test the market with a unique proposition. I have a 2 bedroom apartment in manhattan.

I'm a young, attractive, affluent male looking for a convenient situation. I have an extra room in my apartment and would not mind hooking up an attractive 21-30 female.

I've heard of crazier things-- so if this is a convenient setup for both of us- why not??

The favors are negotiable -- cook, clean and preferable casual sex partner and can be discussed. Picture is required. Then we can meet. Serious inquiries only.

i like orange

Monday, February 09, 2004

Bill Clinton wins a Grammy

"The former US president is now a proud owner of the coveted Grammy, one of music's highest awards."

Sunday, February 08, 2004

a pig in the parlor

"A nuisance may be merely a right thing in the wrong place, like a pig in the parlor instead of the barnyard."
"If there was anything more bizarre than the sudden baring of Janet Jackson's breast during the Super Bowl halftime show, it was the hyperbolic reaction that followed."
L'Affaire Bodice: Why We Are Shocked, Shocked

Saturday, February 07, 2004

long shadows of winter

gay animals
"Roy and Silo, two chinstrap penguins at the Central Park Zoo in Manhattan, are completely devoted to each other. For nearly six years now, they have been inseparable. They exhibit what in penguin parlance is called 'ecstatic behavior': that is, they entwine their necks, they vocalize to each other, they have sex. Silo and Roy are, to anthropomorphize a bit, gay penguins. When offered female companionship, they have adamantly refused it. And the females aren't interested in them, either.
Love That Dare Not Squeak Its Name
At one time, the two seemed so desperate to incubate an egg together that they put a rock in their nest and sat on it, keeping it warm in the folds of their abdomens, said their chief keeper, Rob Gramzay. Finally, he gave them a fertile egg that needed care to hatch. Things went perfectly. Roy and Silo sat on it for the typical 34 days until a chick, Tango, was born. For the next two and a half months they raised Tango, keeping her warm and feeding her food from their beaks until she could go out into the world on her own."

gay animals
"So what if animals are gay? Are people vindicated in our diverse sex lives by diversity in animals? If they put us on trial, can we bring as character witnesses lions who make the Sign of the Great Tawny Beast with same-sex lions? (And they do. Unless that's just a greeting.) No, not unless we would bring those same lions to testify that killing your new significant other's children is a useful way to free up their time for you and your future children. Animals do all kinds of things that we frown on for ourselves.
The fabulous kingdom of gay animals
But we can bring the lions to testify that there's nothing unnatural about human sex lives, that bisexuality and homosexuality are not among those twisted human inventions, like income tax, or graduate school, or step aerobics, that have no close analog in the wild. "

Friday, February 06, 2004

Matt Gonzalez, electoral discardia

Market Street Matt Gonzalez, electoral discardia
photo by heather champ

she killed her sister

A woman, while at the funeral of her own mother, met this guy whom she did not know. She thought this guy was amazing, so much her dream guy she believed him to be, that she fell in love with him right there but never asked for his number and could not find him. A few days later she killed her sister.

What is the woman's motive in killing her sister?
I'm suddenly gripped by a massive burst of misery at how badly I seem to have decayed over the last five years, followed by a massive sense of my own mortality and of the inevitable and steady decay that I can expect until death.
God I'm depressed.

Thursday, February 05, 2004

Topsail Beach and Wrightsville Beach, North Carolina

New (as in I just bought it) Favorite CD

Tony Moran's
Tracks [listen to samples]
E Samba - Junior Jack
Dulce del Piano - The Carreros
Getaway - Becky Baeling
Rapido - Alma Matris
Together - 6th Element
American Life - The Patriot
Lick My Bass - Obelix
Give It Up - Kevin Aviance
Royal Drums Afro-Dynamic IV - Laurent Wolf
White Horse (If You Wanna Ride) - The Orange Factory
Turn Me Out (Get On Up) - Praxis feat. Kathy Brown
Drums - Angelo Kortez feat. Alan T.
Vivo per lei - The Sicilian and Reina
The Bagiuo Track - Luzon

The Sarge Hot List

In--------- ---- - 5 Minutes Ago ------- ---- - Out

Versatility ---- - - -- Service ------ ----- - Submission
Fur ---- ----- --- -- - Clipping --------- -- - Plucking
Face Pics ---- -- - Headless Pics ------- Hole Pics
Camming - ---- -- Scanning ----- --- ---- Faking
Masculine ---- - -- Butch ---- -- ----- - STR8-Acting
English - -- - ------ Wigga -- ---- ----- - Ebonics
Kinks ------- - - -- - Stinks --- - -- - ---- Twinks
Pigs - ---------- - -- Cigs --- - ---- --- -- Wigs
Porn ---- --- --- - -- PA's --- ------ --- - Perfume
Men ---- --------- - 'boys' -- ---- ---- - - ---- Bois

First Gay Weddings In America May 20

"The highest court in the U.S. state of Massachusetts has ruled that same-sex couples must be allowed to marry, making it the first state to legalize gay marriage.
The ruling Wednesday said that only full and equal marriage rights for gay couples would meet the civil rights guarantees of the Massachusetts state constitution."
Via Voice of America and other Media Sources

Wednesday, February 04, 2004

Natalie Wood

Natalie Wood

"She was an exceptional actress in about a half-dozen movies. But this was never acknowledged, and I'm not sure why. The only think I can think of is what George Cukor said about Vivien Leigh, that she was underestimated because of her beauty"
Polishing a Star's Legacy
via NYTimes


this friday again
From: Gustavo
Date: Tue, 3 Feb 2004
Subject: Snaxx me!!!!!
This Friday 6 another installment of SNAXX.
RichKing and I will be serving SMACKING grooves just for your delight the incredible edible crowd, MMM.. MMM.. GOOD!

Westside Tavern
360 W 23rd St., @ 9 Ave.
In the basement
after 10pm.

See you there!

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

Found at: Noe Valley, San Francisco, California, United States
Hand made sign on the side of a service truck.
via Found Typography

VICTOR a loser at crobar?

From: "A"
Date: Tue Feb 3, 2004 6:13 am
Subject: More NY Club Drama

Heard from Victor Calderone (via a mutual friend) last night that he is OUT at Crobar. Crobar will be doing NO MORE afterhours parties on Saturday nights. They told Victor that there are issues with the city and the community board and neighbors about staying open after hours.

I'm not entirely sure I believe this explanation, for reasons including the fact that there are no neighbors, at least none I'm aware of; Crobar's in a totally industrial/art gallery neighborhood. It's possible that they lied to him for whatever reason.

If they really are having trouble with the city over afterhours, that bodes ill for Alegria as well.

But definitely, Victor is out of there as of immediately.

Another one bites the dust. It's fascinating, in a rubbernecking-car-wreck sort of way, to watch how mismanaged this business is getting.



Am I missing something?
CBS is moving to bounce Janet Jackson and Justin Timberlake from next Sunday's Grammy Awards amid the national uproar following their X-rated, prime-time Super Bowl stunt.
scary moralization of the entertainment industry
Nipplegate: The Index
The Times makes a good point about the NFL's outrage: "But if the N.F.L. was really so shocked and appalled, why didn't it flinch at the Cialis advertisement that promised men 36 hours of relief from impotence, then warned that if they should experience an erection for four hours straight, they should seek 'immediate medical care'?"
Slate has a good explanation of FCC's definition of obscenity.
via Gothamist

Monday, February 02, 2004

Try to be nice, as I have severe narcissistic wounding

cultural bulimia:

Our compulsive consumption of images that only leaves us hungry for more.

Vincent Desiderio

oil on canvas

The title is a reference to Pieter Bruegel the Elder's "Land of Cockaigne" (1559), a moral allegory set in a land of plenty where the houses are tiled with cakes, the fences are made of sausages and the fowl fly roasted and ready to eat. The targets in Bruegel's painting were gluttony and sloth; Mr. Desiderio's version is a critique of what he calls "cultural bulimia" — our compulsive consumption of images that only leaves us hungry for more. It is also a comment on the predicament of painting in the 21st century: faced with such a plethora of styles and formal idioms, how is it possible to create something new, something distinctively relevant to our own time? "Cockaigne" is one artist's response to what the critic Harold Bloom called the "anxiety of influence," an attempt, in Mr. Desiderio's words, "to reconfigure the history of art in order to create imaginative space for ourselves."
A 10-Year-Long Art History Course

New York Lone City

Through the Cracks, Then Through the Ice
A man fell through the ice and nobody missed him. Nobody reported him gone. Nobody wondered where he was. Not the day he fell through the ice or the next day or the day after that. For an entire week, nobody missed him.
Even in this city of the famous and the forgotten that passes so many by, could someone be that invisible?
He had fallen through the ice.
"''The Bachelor'' and ''Queer Eye for the Straight Guy'' have come into being, along with all the other reality shows. That means that the machinery for publicly humiliating those who stray from approved narratives of self-presentation has reached the farthest corners of the land."
The Way We Live Now: For Worse
great writing
I love reading.
But what I love the most is to find a writer that is able to convey in few words an idea that will connect several ideas that clog my mind, giving me - if just for a moment - the feeling that I imagine made Archimedes yell "Eureka!"

ashkan sahihi:

a seminal photo exhibit
We have seen the zeitgeist, and we need a Handi-Wipe. From the proliferation of bukkake websites to those priapic Svedka ads (it's vodka! it's ejaculate! it's vodka and ejaculate!) to Jenna Jameson looming over Times Square, pop culture is — if not exactly come-covered — perpetually almostthere. Ashkan Sahihi, a 40-year-old New York photographer, wittily twists this commercial ubiquity in his latest series. Male and female models are seated in front of a Sears portrait backdrop. Their expressions are ordinary; their faces are covered with what is apparently semen. Shock valuism, for sure, but what's interesting about these images is their banality: it's the faces, not the fluid, that you remember.

Left Out, but Still Stealing the Show: "The nomination for the small, dark movie about children killing children in Brazilian slums was indeed a surprise; it didn't even qualify for a best foreign film Academy Award nomination in 2002, when it was released in its native Brazil."