a blog with cultural bulimia.

Monday, December 19, 2005

Celebrations and reasons to be happy.

Francis & João got married.

 They are two of the people I have become very good friends with since my return to BH. João is my cousin but when I used to live here he was just an annoyance - too young for me to waste my time with. He has now turn into one of the finest man I know (and a heart surgeon nonetheless). It also helps I have really clicked with Francis, the owner of the fashion label Caos. We hang out a lot - any excuse to open a bottle of wine...

It makes me happy that I am sharing this moment with them. And it makes it more justifiable for me to be here.

It has been 9 months now and It hasn't been easy. On one hand things are happening that should make me happier: a car, an apartment, guys that seem interested. On the other hand, there is a lack of goals. I try but I can't see very far. And I'm tired of being so unexcited.

It has been very hard for me to let go of NY, you must know how much I love it. And I can't say that Belo Horizonte make it easier to bear it. Just learning to relax and loose the immediacy we are so used to in NY is a trial. My health has improved but I'm not - and don't think I will ever be - ready to run a marathon. And that should be enough, right?

But it's not.